Stanley Uris (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
offtheboard) wrote in ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
nebulochaotic2020-11-18 07:09 pm
offtheboard) wrote in nebulochaotic2020-11-18 07:09 pm
Text to Eddie (REDIRECTED TO EVERY NETWORK PARTICIPANT, EDS INCLUDED)
How do you figure out what the hell to do with yourself here?
Working at a bank isn't bad, of course, but it's boring. There's no challenge to it and it's driving me nuts. Plus, they've got some really bad habits at this bank and it's driving me nuts.
INNER THOUGHT MATRIX ACTIVATED- ADDED:
And I'm making a surplus to what I'm putting out anyway considering the stipend - they really have made a mistake in how they're doing this from a money management point of view. I'm going to have more than enough saved over the course of a period of time that it's going to be me probably more ahead than I should be.
Which makes it really easy to hate my job considering I have a cushion to be picky, which doesn't really help keep my mind from wandering and from struggling to think about Patty at home and the fact that I can never go back to that and I have to figure out how to settle in here.
DARCY (text generated on your behalf);
How are you settling in, I've been thinking about you and your boys wondering if you were doing all right?
LOSERS (ADDED FILTER TO DARCY, LYDIA, AND OTHER ACQUAINTANCES -if you have talked to San you can see);
So Thanksgiving is coming up, has anybody talked any plans yet? We could do something, potentially, thoughts?
[OOC: TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM/DEATH WITHIN]
Working at a bank isn't bad, of course, but it's boring. There's no challenge to it and it's driving me nuts. Plus, they've got some really bad habits at this bank and it's driving me nuts.
INNER THOUGHT MATRIX ACTIVATED- ADDED:
And I'm making a surplus to what I'm putting out anyway considering the stipend - they really have made a mistake in how they're doing this from a money management point of view. I'm going to have more than enough saved over the course of a period of time that it's going to be me probably more ahead than I should be.
Which makes it really easy to hate my job considering I have a cushion to be picky, which doesn't really help keep my mind from wandering and from struggling to think about Patty at home and the fact that I can never go back to that and I have to figure out how to settle in here.
DARCY (text generated on your behalf);
How are you settling in, I've been thinking about you and your boys wondering if you were doing all right?
LOSERS (ADDED FILTER TO DARCY, LYDIA, AND OTHER ACQUAINTANCES -if you have talked to San you can see);
So Thanksgiving is coming up, has anybody talked any plans yet? We could do something, potentially, thoughts?
[OOC: TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM/DEATH WITHIN]
no subject
What the fuck? No, I...no. It's just that a while back, people were having memories of shit that other people went through suddenly just end up in their brains. It's fucked up how many people I saw dying that week. I meant if that happened again... Well, a lot of people started messaging me asking me if that was really how I died. It was fantastic.
Yeah, I guess kind of.
I'm still not sure I've entirely let go of home myself, so I'm probably not the right person to be giving advice in that vein. She'll be all right, though, Stanley. Maybe not right now, but...she will.
You can too have a family alone. I've been thinking about it. I mean, not right now or anything, but maybe after I'm a citizen and I'm working in risk management again and making decent money. You could adopt.
You could hire a surrogate. Who says you can't do it alone? And as for starting a business, you'd have to jump through hoops back home, too, so fuck it. Sounds to me like you've got the start of a bucket list already percolating, man.
REROUTED PUBLIC HERE FORWARD
I know she'll be all right, I made sure that even if something happened to me she'd be taken care of physically, I just hate that I won't be able to explain to her or do anything to make it easier. Patty's always going to be a thought in the back of my mind, I guess. I committed to her and I love her. And maybe that's part of the problem, nobody to take care of anymore, just myself. Even though I know I want her to be happy and move forward I don't know if I should be allowed to do the same.
You've been considering having a family alone? Really?
no subject
Dude, there's nothing wrong with that. Nobody's saying you can't still love her and miss her, man. Shit, my marriage was a fucking mess, but I still love Marty and miss her sometimes, so it follows that you would definitely miss Patty, if your marriage was still a good one. I think you don't really have a choice but to move forward, though. Whether you like it or not, this place brought you back to life, so just by the nature of life itself, you have no choice but to move forward. Happy, though...that's up to you. Don't you think she'd want you to be happy, too, though, man? Even if you couldn't be happy with her?
Yeah, I mean...Marty and I tried really hard for kids. It just never panned out. I wouldn't have tried so hard if I didn't really want 'em, you know? So yeah, I've thought about it.