She was raising me to be like her, and to make better decisions than I did, though, Derek. I should have though more and done better, but I'll try if you do.

You obviously still blame yourself for Kate when you were even younger than me, you were a kid - the only one responsible for one happened to everyone was Kate. And I guess in the same vein the only one responsible for what happened to me is Peter, not me for my bad choices.